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A Stagnant Movement

The Grand Jury decided not to indict Darren Wilson for the shooting of Michael Brown. Sparking a shocking reaction in St. Louis, and countless solidarity protest across the country. It was raw and angry.

I’m all for helping North County, I was before August. But stop pretending this one incident in Ferguson exposed so much. It didn’t. No one cared before—that’s the real tragedy—that’s the only thing that’s been exposed, people didn’t care what happened in the north part of St. Louis county.

Black lives do matter. Never met one serious person whose ever implied otherwise. I don’t know why it’s trending or how it became a hash tag, that implies a widely expected sentiment that black lives don’t matter—which is false and frankly ridiculous—but it is.

Think about it: if you knew who Dr. Gosnell was, his race, and what he did. You’d know that’s one of the stupidest social media campaign to date. It’s almost as stupid as gamergate.

It’s stupid, and I don’t use the word lightly, to say that no good working and caring relationship exist between races is disingenuous and flat out wrong.

Here’s a great example.

The St. Louis American introduced a new columnist. John W. Payne. It’s significant because in the midst of all the racial tensions the old and storied African American publication based in St. Louis made a bold move. Bringing in a white academic to commentate on black crime and incarceration.

Like, I know the guy…


Hope on the Horizon

I was watching my African America friends watch Ferguson and one post popped out, it hash tagged: Don’t Get It Twisted. By a former a Basketball teammate. He’s successful in sales and coaches a youth basketball team. His dad’s a pastor. He’s an all around good guy.

It’s a real discussion with my real African American friends from the same place I knew John from, home.

I saw this written in response to a friends honest reaction Ferguson.

The more things change the more they stay the same.

At least now you know.

Here were my words of comfort.

Nah, there’s some good stuff happening. Some of us are noticing the real work.

Just my humble opinion. I speak because Tony and Brent were my teammates, on a team that was forced to deal with these issues, before the vocabulary existed to have the conversation. We had a good coach who taught us to get past the stupid things we had learned growing up in the sticks. We were lucky.

I once dropped a 6’8″, 380 pound dude for Brent [Brent Little, a great guy who lives in Chicago]. Ask Greg [Greg Hansborugh, Tyler Hansborough’s brother. Shout out to Snake Diesel true story] . (But that was basketball camp, this giant was pushing my teammates around so, I knocked the big bastard on his ass, people were stunned. Brent was my teammate, he was my brother on the court) This is serious stuff, though. We have to get past this. We have to see the people wanting real change as our countrymen, am I advocating violence? No. Our coach made me run 20 suicides, for the incident. When he ask me if it was worth it, I said “Yes”. I got punished for my stupid act of punching someone. I should have. However… That doesn’t mean that type of loyalty shouldn’t exist between the black and white American communities—most definitely on a higher, more mature level. It’s an opportunity for good change and an opportunity for idiots. It’s anyone’s guess… If I had to wager, I’d bet on good people rising to the occasion, moving forward.

I don’t mean to preach, but something needed to be said

Vigilance Isn’t Without Some Cause
Serious, nefarious, opportunist elements loom on the outskirts looking to use this for whatever radical cause they seem focused on. A tone has been set by some, one name that comes to mind is Bassem Masri.

@Buck Sexton: @GrantGambling is that the guy who has a rioter steal his cellphone out of his hand, and then tweeted “the cops did it” ?

Yes, Mr. Sexton he was.

@bassem_masri: We had 90k ppl watching us live good strat by police stealing my phone sending in crash dummies #ferguson

Is Bassem, “dangerous”? I don’t know. But I do know he bitched about his own freedom speech and ran journalist out of town twice. It’s not just his community. It’s a big region. It’s a big fucking place. Bassem does not speak for an entire community. He speaks for his lie-stream.

It’s still tense here, but like my close and personal friend John W. Payne “wrote: this has all been pretty mild.”

@AndrewKirell: A very thoughtful piece of perspective from a friend in St. Louis:

The movement is not stagnant, but bogged down by the same problems that plagued Zuccoti. The current scores of solidarity protest leaves one gob smacked.


And in each and every place it’s the same

@hboulware: “Fuck the police!” “The police need to back off and shut up!” “WHY ARE THE POLICE NOT STOPPING THIS VIOLENCE?”

That’s the cries from the afflicted outsiders. I wish they’d hush. The people who live here really want to be about the business of moving on.


Something Happened.

Protest sprang up again in St. Louis. This time on the South Side. Near interstate 44 and Kingshighway. It shut down traffic and diverted routes, according to Metro Officials. Not really a big deal on a Sunday night at 8:30 pm. Inconvenient, sure.. But the protestors have the right to grieve. This has been the best and most constructive way I’ve seen their grief expressed, thus far. However, I don’t pretend to understand their grief, I only claim to not understand the reactions to what we’ve all come to label as “sensational coverage”. Charles C Cooke called it the “professional grievance industry“. These protest happened near The Grove, arguably the most progressive part of St. Louis, the city.

Photo Via Twitter and Matt Pearce’s dome


@mattdpearce: I’m fine, FYI!

Good News

The media has beat this horse to death. The protest have increased to an eyebrow-raising level of organization. The rhetoric has been loose and violent (google Bassem Masri). That photo above for me says everything about how the media has come out on the other side of Ferguson. Post-Feeguson, if you will. A bit bruised, bloodied and battered, but smiling. They love it. The community, the region, is still held hostage by fear.

This story for example, a woman shot “accidentally” by her boyfriend who had recently purchased a gun due to the coverage of the upheaval in the area—died, she was in a car with him and accidentally shot herself in the head.. That’s the story anyway. It’s said the gun was purchased out of fear of Ferguson unrest. Could we place the blame on sensationalized reporting? Maybe…

If we do, it certainly makes that photo even more apropos, the self-inflicted wound. Ray Downs first covered the clashes. I miss him. He told it straight. Read his twitter timeline from that August. It’s real, it’s in the moment, even if he is a hippie, Ché-loving-commie. It’s always better to give credit where it’s due, and it’s always due to those who tell the truth. He said it long before Ferguson, here. Of course, he too went on an absurd offensive, before he moved on. We did find common ground at times.

Ray isn’t coming back.. This is something new. A valve of some sorts, to let off the steam of a community. We have what we have.

I love this state, this region. I stand ready to tell the truth, along with many others. I will hold my line… Along with many others.

@JeffSmithMO: I have no words after reading this. // Woman allegedly kills herself with gun bought to prepare for Ferguson unrest

Lastly, I sincerely hope Matt Pearce is okay. I am curt and short with him on twitter, but in reality, he’s my fellow countryman. I wish him well.

A Fine Line.

I’m sitting here, with a baby sleeping in my arms, thinking about what’s to come. It’s a cool time to be alive, to communicate with fellow inquiring minds. New ones who stretch you far beyond a comfort zone and old ones, who remind you of who you once thought you were. An old mirror that catches the light in just the right way. Sorry—a classy, regal, beloved old mirror. Both, new and old, help with the uncertainty, the fear of bringing babies into such a fray. A fray we didn’t create or shape. However, a fray that has shaped us. Cynical, sharp elbows and tongues were born out of such an age, by such a fray.

mr. smith goes to washington. you let ’em watch that AND to kill a mockingbird, and they’ll be liberals so fast that yer head’ll spin.-Chicago liberal

Frank Capra. They watch a lot of frank Capra. He directed mr smith, it’s a wonderful life, and arsenic and old lace.-Me.

She was referring to this, a PBS article about old movies.

And she’ll always be one of my favorite liberals, her opinion will always matter. I’ve met plenty.. Nothing wrong with liberals. As I pointed out here.

A Liberal Defense

Commentary on the executive order on immigration, via screenshot.

Liberals are good. They are needed. But in equal measure and balance with the traditional conservatives who also love and recognize the greatness in this nation. Compassionate liberals, and conservatives for that matter, are needed to soften the edge of the sometimes, the over zealous rhetoric and actions by those who want protection of our national security, by “republican right wing nut jobs”, ( see: Walter Sobchack, from The Big Leboswki. He wasn’t wrong, he was just an asshole) aren’t nut jobs, they see the world differently. I dunno.. Maybe this is also a humble defense of those who usually can’t articulate themselves via Social Media. Liberals broadly embrace the actions of Reagan to Lincoln to justify the recent Executive Order issued by the POTUS. Seemingly, unaware that they’ve mocked and degraded what Reagan meant to people, for a decade now (I know, stupid people—I saw Gruber’s video).

Sometimes it’s hard to defend:
My response to the post

Wow.. It would be weird if the current POTUS thought an ex governor of Texas would have any insight into immigration reform. Right?

I mean—I heard that guy who graduated from Yale could barely read. He only got the job because of his dad or something. Elected twice to the same office.. That’s actually expanding it’s powers. Whoa. WHOA! You mean they’re similar!? I have to sit down… My mind is blown. Barrack Obama and George W Bush have similar views on an issue. Well, now I’ve seen every fucking thing.

Does this mean they were elected in the same way? That can’t be!! That doesn’t compute. There’s no way they were elected under the same process. There’s no way they represent the same core principals that define our nation. That couldn’t be.., that’d be completely beyond the realm of possibility.

I’m lost in a sea of contradictions and compromise. Black and white morality, never existed.

That was my response.. To the thinly veiled justification for an executive order, that was hated by the left when republicans did it, but is necessary when democrats do it. I truly am lost, I don’t know which way is up and which way is down.

It’s loved by liberals, for helping an ignored populous and exploited by greedy free-market-anarcho capitalist on the right. Don’t get me wrong, both sides of the elites are elite and wil continue to benefit, if they can. However, will this take jobs away from a dedicated democratic base? Will it effect their money, which motivates people more then you know. This President is walking a fine line. We shall see..

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